Ya keep on sinnin' in the name of rock and roll. [11 Oct 2008|04:19pm] idealia [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | Heart - Heartless ] ( New Mary Magdalene dress... ) 8 comments|post comment

Keep on crawling til the day I die. [10 Oct 2008|01:04pm] idealia [ mood | blazed ] [ music | The Doors - Crawling King Snake ] Damon Soule: I found out about his work a couple of years ago but just saw this rad interview with him on Fecal Face. His work has gotten a lot better since the last time I saw it! ...god fucking damnit I love The Doors. post comment

All your love is gone, so sing a lonely song. [10 Oct 2008|12:34pm] idealia [ music | The Doors - Love Her Madly ] Don't you love her madly? Don't you need her badly? Don't you love her ways? Tell me what you say. Don't you love her madly? Wanna be her daddy? Don't you love her face? Don't you love her as she's walkin out the door? Like she did one thousand times before. Don't you love her ways? Tell me what you say. Dont you love her as she's walkin out the door? All your love, all your love, all your love, all your love... All your love is gone, so sing a lonely song Of a deep blue dream, seven horses seem to be on the mark. Yeah, don't you love her? Don't you love her as she's walkin out the door? All your love, all your love, all your love... Yeah, all your love is gone, so sing a lonely song Of a deep blue dream, seven horses seem to be on the mark. Well, don't you love her madly? Don't you love her madly? Don't you love her madly? 1 comment|post comment

Didn't Even Get To The Rug [10 Oct 2008|09:20am] barx [ mood | happy ] [ music | Bob Dylan: The Man In Me ] There's so much of last night i don't remember. i blacked out hard before one, but how long before one i have noooo idea. All i know is that when i did black out i was havin such a good time. i was just all drunk n talkin to Joe with Edison. Edison kept doin his redneck voice and Joe thought it was awesome. And Joe did his French voice! i love it when he does that, it's so good. Joe sent us a clip of Artie Lang talkin about shitting in his pants while on heroin and we got a good few laughs outta it. i forget why, but Joe started sayin the lyrics to Good Friends and a Bottle of Pills and it was so sexy. It was the only moment in which i wished Edison wasn't there cause i wanted to tell him that, among other things. But hey, got swept up in the fun of it all, can't complain about that. i quoted part of it and then me n Edison listened to it. i remember at one point that Joe was saying it was weird talking through a computer, but that too got swept up in the fun we were having. Pft. Next time he says something like that i'm gonna be all "why is it weird? get with the times man." i don't remember a lot of what was said after Edison left, i just remember having a grand time and that i started watching The Big Lebowski again. Didn't even get past the rug before i blacked out though lol. i felt soooo good. i feel so good! i love that man so much. Even completely hungover i feel so happy just cause i had a good time with hime last night. i just have that Bob Dylan song in my head and i keep singin it, can't get this smile over my face. So much awesomeness. Takes a woman like my kind, to get through to the man in you. keke post comment

A Thought [09 Oct 2008|02:39am] barx [ mood | content ] [ music | Hans Zimmerman: You're So Cool ] i'm convinced the only true way to a straight man's heart is to be both his friend and lover and to know the difference when he needs one or the other. Because guys will always be more secure with their friends than their lovers. Sometimes they need that reassurance, that time to feel the pressure come off. At the same time, there are comforts that a friend alone cannot possibly provide. So with this in mind i vow that i will be your friend when you need that. i will be your lover when you need that. Either way i will always be there for you Joe. post comment

You pick my heart with a smile. [08 Oct 2008|07:50pm] idealia [ mood | excited ] [ music | Mazzy Star - Mary Of Silence ] My ninja costume is going to be SOOOO badass. If I had a bit more time, I would make shoulder pads but...I'll have to make due for now without them. However, I may go back to House of Humor and buy a fake katana. I bought some daggers which are sweet, but a katana would be super ninja-y fresh. 5 comments|post comment

Forever is forever until it begins. [06 Oct 2008|10:52pm] idealia [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Avellana - In the Night ] A while ago, I realized that I haven't picked up my PRS in about 3 months. Usually when I practice & jam with other people, I noticed that I always grab the Gretsch. It's almost become an issue of "there's no question which one I'm taking, George is going in the back of my trunk pronto" (for those of you who don't know, I named my Gretsch after my hero & main inspiration, George Harrison). So after realizing this, I realized something else: I've fallen completely for Gretsch guitars. Maybe it's that damn Bigsby that's stolen my heart. Don't get me wrong - I think I'll always have an appreciation for the PRS Custom 24's; afterall, that was my dream guitar for about 5-6 years of my life. But my PRS SE Custom just doesn't feel the way my Gretsch does. It doesn't have those curves. It doesn't have the tone I've come to completely & utterly rely on when I'm pumpin tunes out of the Deluxe. This is what I'm thinking: I know Gelb will sometimes take trade-ins for gear. And my PRS is in pristine condition, seriously. If I polish it smidge, it'll look like I just bought it. So ultimately, I'd be trading it in for something else. And what is that something else, you ask? The G5120 Electromatic Hollow Body. Click on that picture for an awesome detailing of that orange stain. It also comes in a traditional sunburst, a deep cherry stain and black. But okay, the color isn't the important thing right now...although, I fucking love that orange stain and how the pickguard is clear! XD;; The only problem is that it's 16" wide instead of my G6118tJR's 14" wide. It also doesn't have the high sensitive Filter'Tron pick-ups (which could be the deciding factor for me...). The fretboard also isn't ebony but rosewood; but that's okay, I used to be a big fan of those rosewood Strats Tony would let me play during work. The real issue is the difference in price: an Eletromatic collection is a significantly cheaper than the Anniversary collection so I'm wondering if the G5120 took a drop in quality. Fuck, I just need to play one. The great thing too is that if Gelb gave me an even trade, I wouldn't have to pay any extra! Anyway, these are just kind-of the thoughts running through my head. And of course, if any of you are looking to buy a PRS SE Custom in gray black, feel free to let me know. :) 2 comments|post comment

Atarashiku watashi rashiku anata rashiku... [04 Oct 2008|03:30pm] idealia [ mood | amused ] [ music | Ayumi Hamasaki - Far away ] Out of curiosity, what are you guys dressing up as for Halloween? I wanted to do it last year, but this year (for sure), I'm going to be a ninja. Trust me: as always, I take Halloween & costuming seriously and this will be an epic costume. 11 comments|post comment

The cauldrons have eyes by way of racket and vice. [02 Oct 2008|11:40pm] idealia [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | The Mars Volta - Eunuch Provocateur ] Yes...I did. :P And I'm damn excited about it, too. About a month ago, I re-ordered the SS Tea Party replicas (cept these are the traditional ones, with no rhinestones...and in my correct size ^^;) in black & the SS Kera Cuties in black, which I think will look good with the above. Unfortunately, neither of those pairs of shoes will get here until November sometime. I think for the Aki Matsuri on Sunday, I'll be wearing be wearing ALL black BTSSB & Meta. For those of you going, do you know what you're wearing yet? :3 And duuuude. Have any of you guys ordered from Coquettish*Tiara? I've been looking at their purses on MAURIONE lately and shit...they are so effin cute. Most of 'em are a bit too sweet for my tastes but I think with the Dot Chiffon JSK, I might be able to rock one. And in other news, I heard that TMV has been playing this song lately. It gives me renewed hope that I may one day get to see them perform it live. :) 12 comments|post comment

9/29 & 9/30 & 10/1 [02 Oct 2008|06:33pm] barx [ mood | in limbo ] [ music | Pantera: Cemetary Gates ] 9/29 20:53PM Haha Jammy took my glasses and i'm so blind the Russian page in front of me looks like binary code. 010010101010101 "What's the time code doing on Fry's ass?" "It was bound to be somewhere!" 9/30 16:16PM i was just thinking about how writing most often comes to me when i'm supposed to be doing something else. School and work in particular. i realized that i know the pull of inspiration, the demanding feeling that accompanies the urge to do what is one's calling. In other words, i now know how Ryan Petty felt when he would drawn in class all day not seeming to give a damn about what he was supposed to be doing or that he got in trouble for it repeatedly. 16:49PM i signed up for some daily horrorscope awhile back. It's on the icexwoman account so i rarely remember that i have it and even then it isn't often i have a mind to check it. i only look when i'm particularly curious about something, usually to with Joe i must admit. i looked up the one for the 28th, which was the day i sent Gatsby the essay. The horrorscope said to trust my hunches because at the time i was in touch with another realm and that it didn't matter if it didn't have logic to it. Trippy. So i did the right thing when the urge to send the essay took over? 17:40PM Hahaha, there's some dude downstairs that always sings "figaro!" in this awesome opera voice. Now he's doing Arnold and Tarzan impressions. We can hear him from down the stairway with the door closed. Dude has a set o' lungs. 17:50PM i had a couple books in Latin and i got the Rome theme song in my head. i love that composition. i love the visuals for it too, the crowded streets, the artistic animations. i wanna see if i can find some traditional Raoman music. Made me wanna read up on the myths n stuff too. i knew Greek and Roman mythology down pat when i was younger. 10/1 (Happy birthday to Alina) 10:30am Haha, every time Norway moves, his chair makes a sound like a goose. But yeah...So i now know that Joe read the essay. But only cause his only response thus far was "what's Kablaam! ?" Which i spelled wrong. He wasn't there by the time i got home, but i responded with "Ah man, i fucked that part up?" He must have forgotten the name of the show or something. Maybe he's just yankin my chain. In any case i have no idea what his initial reaction to the essay as a whole was, if any. It doesn't bother me per se, that i don't know. But i am genuinely curious and so i can't seem to get it off my mind for more than a few minutes. Everyday since i've sent it i've You're So Cool in my head on and off throughout the days. Man i hope he licked it. That'd be a bummer if not. i don't wanna pry it outta him though. i want him to want to tell me. So i won't ask while i'm sober, although i can never speak for my willful drunken self. i wonder if he'll show anyone. Jordy is my guess, if so. i think he's the only one that knows of my existence. Goddamn i am so high. i love lookin at the dome, leanin back. Even when there isn't anything cool being projected onto it, there's an aurora borealis around the bottom. "A-Aurora Borealis? At this time of year? At this time of day? In this part of the country? Localized entirely within your kitchen?" (pause) "Yes". (slight pause) "May i see it?" (slight pause) "no." hehe. So good to watch the old eps again. i love that site. i wanna watch all the Halloween episodes (along with the first Jason movie, since i've never seen any of those) on Halloween. i need to brush up on my memorization of Poe's The Raven so that i may recite it as perfectly as i used to. i am so goddamn stoned. My chest feels heavy. i think i grow a cup size or two when i'm high haha. People always say i crush them when i hug them and now i'm crushing myself. It's pleasant though, kinda lightheaded and so forth. i wish i could have small boobs for a day so i could know what it feels like to hug someone with huge tits. i think when you yourself have big boobs you don't get the full effect. 11:40am Sometimes it makes me sad that people don't remember little details as well as i do. But it's cool to be the one who dictates what is remembered i guess. 2 comments|post comment

It's nearly midnight. [01 Oct 2008|02:58pm] idealia [ mood | chipper ] [ music | CocoRosie - By your side ] YAY! I just got off the phone with Professor Chadwick! I'm still going to be doing research with her this semester and guess what?? I'm going to be getting paid for it! That really shocked me because I thought originally that I was just going to be doing it as kind-of a volunteer thing (which was fine with me) but she went to the Art Department and asked how much work study people make & she'll be paying me!! I'm so happy. XD I'm finally going to be doing research for a professor I love! I'm going to be helping her compile a bibliography for an upcoming essay she's doing with a textile artist (can't remember her name right now ^^;) who was famous in the 60's. Chadwick is actually flying out next week to New York to meet the artist & start doing the interviews & whatnot. Anyway, this is awesome news! I am so stoked! Annnnd, I've completely cleaned the house. The living room looks so great, I wanna show you guys pictures...maybe I'll do that later, ok? :) post comment

No It's Never Gonna Be That Simple [29 Sep 2008|06:36pm] barx [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Tori Amos: Lust ] 9:30am Goddamnit my body feels weird and i feel sick, overheated and like i'm gonna start trembling. Neck is sore as fuck from sleepin on it wrong. This sucks. i don't wanna be here at all. i hate waking up this early, it makes me feel so shitty, all the time. The Present: Thankfully tho Cal History was canceled. So i spent the time snuggled up to Stephen! and chatting with Broham Mcthrash, Sean, Sam, Edison, Stenda, Brice n some other folks. Broham got me a bottle of water and i felt much better after that. i went home and slept, took a shower. On the way to work i called dad and pretty much all he had to say was that he was irritated at Justin for having the t.v "blasting" while i was trying to sleep. i said that i'd gone to sleep fine, and he said it wasn't good sleep though because the noise registers in one's subconscious. And then he got irritated because i didn't care, which irritated me in turn. Shit, if i went to sleep that fast and didn't wake up once, what do i really have to complain about? It's not like Justin was bein a dick and wouldn't turn it off or down. The t.v was at the volume i left it on when i went to sleep. So if anything, a lack of rest was my own fault. But dad got all pissy with me, like he always does when we argue. And then i feel like shit after cause i know he's unhappy. Drew n Jammy cheered me up though. Saturday i spent the whole afternoon and night watching Simpsons episode with Joe. It was frustrating that msn was fucking up and half of what we said to each other didn't get sent, but it was fun all the same. i felt so happy watching all the old episodes. As i told him i felt like a kid in a candy store. Around one he disappeared to play a video game that he ended up pulling an all nighter with. Said he made a female Deadpool character which i thought was adorable. Ah damnit! that's something else i should have put in the essay. He has just the right amount of nerdiness to be adorable. Blast. ah well, shit happens. Anyhow, i stuck around til about 2 and during that time my drunkass got bored. Having earlier made the final touch on the You're So Cool essay - tying the Big Lebowski in - i decided to send it to him. i have no idea if he's read it yet. If he has he hasn't said anything. i'm actually expecting that once he does read it i won't be hearing from him for awhile. And that will suck, a lot, but it won't be as bad as before because i have faith that eventually he'll come around again. Funny how my bursts of impatience always lead up to me having to be patient for lengthy periods of time. i realized that before i sent it though, so i knew what i was doing. i really hope that he will read it and just feel good about himself, it's everything i've been trying to tell him all those nights when i was too wasted to properly express myself. But i'm fairly certain it won't be that simple. Why would it be? And she waits, and she waits... post comment

A girl with kaleidoscope eyes. [29 Sep 2008|03:31pm] idealia [ mood | tired ] [ music | The Beatles - Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds ] Thank-you everyone who wished me birthday wishes on the 27th! :) On the 26th, I went out with Peter + some friends (Alex, Heather, Jessica, Hana, Joanna + friends, Emma + friends) to The Little Shamrock in the Inner Sunset. It was so much fun there! They played Portishead while we were there and I just about died. ;___; They have an extensive collection of board games, darts, etc., and Peter and I ended up playing Trivial Pursuit with a guy named Cy and his friends Scott & Amy. :D After, the whole group of folks made way to Toronado in the Lower Haight, where they were having Belguim beer month. The first one I had kinda tasted like weed (very strange) and the second one was called Damnation! That place proved to be a hit as well; we made friends with the bouncer as well as some locals at the bar. Also: Heather & I switched rooms on Friday. Yeeep, so now I'm all situated in the big room. It took me forever to get everything all sorted (including the some 700+ books I own O_o...srsly, I might as well start a library) but everything is looking nice right now. I need to get a light for my closet and maybe a new curtain. The rest of the house is still kind-of a mess but I'm exhausted from all the cleaning that went on today. On my birthday on Saturday, my mom came up to SF and we saw Professor Chadwick's lecture on Kahlo when she was visiting SF with Rivera. She agreed to take me on as her research assistant (SCOREEE)! We also got a free crepe at Genki Crepes afterward. XD That night, Peter took me out to dinner at Kappo Nami Nami in Mountain View...we had a GREAT dinner, which was as follows: - asperagus with seasame sauce - kappa rolls - Peter had tempura shrimp, which he thinks are the best he's had yet - I had sticky mountain yam udon - pear milk pudding with kumquats We also saw Sweeny Todd, which (to our dismay) we found out was bloody fucking MUSICAL!! Both Peter and I HATE musicals but we watched the movie since we paid for it...and I must say it wasn't too bad. My mom, Bill and my dad also took me out to Tamaran last night...omg omg great dinner. I can't name everything but we had a hot pot cod, more prawns!!, garlic jasmine rice, traditional pho noodles, and for dessert, banana biegnets (sp?). *___* After a weekend of lovely foods, how can I go back to the lame, non-exotic foods that I feed myself everyday? ;) 5 comments|post comment

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